Remember being in 1st grade and looking at the 3rd graders and thinking how grown up they were? And looking at the 5th graders like, “woah. They’re so old. They have their shit together. They know how the world works.”
I still think like that. Even though I’m basically only 18 hours behind the people who are graduating in May (most of my high school class of ‘08) I’m still like woah. They’re way more mature than me. They got this whole life and work thing down.
I’ve had the ask thing disabled ever since I got a Tumblr because all the ones I see on my dash are more dumb and annoying than entertaining or useful. But I figured I’d at least turn it on in case someone has a genuine question for me. I will probably never answer publicly unless I feel it necessary to do so because I hate asks clogging up my dash and I don’t want to clog anyone else’s. So here.
I dislike when someone creates something with an intended meaning. Like, “oh yeah the blue represents emptiness and repression and the broken glass is representing her fragility. Oh the box in the corner is a box of her deepest secrets.” and blah blah blah blah. When there is an intentional message it takes all the curiosity and wonder out of the whole thing for me and I can’t appreciate it. It influences me too much. Or actually, it’s supposed to influence me but it doesn’t.
There was a girl in my drawing class who always had a meaning for every one of her pieces and would always ask everyone else what their pieces meant. She asked me the meaning of one of my last pieces (the one of the triangular house with the willow branches hanging in front (I would link it here but my archive thing is acting up)) and I just told her there was no meaning. I used the india ink because I like the look of india ink and I was experimenting with some techniques. I veiled the willow branches in front because I like willow trees and would like them all around. I made the front door yellow and a circle because how cool would that be to have a circular yellow door? From these things, feel free to analyze what they say about me or my mood or what’s in my head. Like, I have ideas about all my pieces and what they say about me, but I in no way made them as a planned way to explain who I am.
Make something you want to see and THEN see what it says. When you don’t plan, don’t think, don’t analyze, it’s far more revealing in the end.
The idea came to mind about 45 minutes ago to make a blog for my morning and evening song posts so here it is. Still working on things like layout, etc. but if you enjoy what music I post, feel free to head on over there and hit that cute little “follow” button.